permitted to control - frame by frame; a cruel spectre, peering in upon a world i may never touch. a life i may not have. my window shines like the world i try so desperately to control. as if i intrude upon a world, forced to watch by hands not my own. desire to watch, my own insatiable lust. permitted to control - but never to take part. the friend who silently passed. i feel that i'm to blame. for closing in upon a world, not mine. trying to create, and only creating pain. i hurt inside, crying in my darkened room. i only achieve my isolation.
as if i intrude upon a world, forced to watch by hands not my own. desire to watch, my own insatiable lust. permitted to control - but never to take part. the friend who silently passed. i feel that i'm to blame. for closing in upon a world, not mine. trying to create, and only creating pain. i hurt inside, crying in my darkened room. i only achieve my isolation.